LAND of a THOUSAND WORDS

Monday, December 25, 2006

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I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want
YOU
for my own

More than you could ever known

Make my wish come true...

All I want for Christmas,

Is YOU...

MERRY CHRISTMASSS!~!!!
GOD Bless You

25.12.06;

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

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once again its another girl.. *evil grin*

sigh.. why her?
its supposed to be me, right?

...

what's with his promises?
where did those words go?
what's with 'I do'??

dream on, girl..
dream on..

sighh.. men are reall bastards

yes, you know they are.
and fuck with 'I do'.
cheers!

yea, rite.
cheers!

(my heart is just simply too tired to fight with my brain)

his words. calls. texts. messages
laughs. sadness. voices. worries
everything

perfectly stuck in my head

or should i say in my heart?

I don't know..

but one thing I know is that I have to move on..

I, (Bride/Groom), take (you/thee) (Groom/Bride), to be my (wife/husband),
to have and to hold you from this day forward,
for better or for worse,
for richer, or for poorer,
in sickness and in health.
I further promise to love you and cherish you,
and be faithful to you for as long as we both shall live.

20.12.06;

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

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Monday, December 18th 2006. Puri Indah Mall, Jakarta.

c: kok banyak anak kecil ya, ne?
me: huh?
c: banyak anak kecil..
me: *looking around*
me: iya, banyak anak smp gitu..
c: apa kita yang uda tua ya..

are we?

19.12.06;

Thursday, December 14, 2006

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at the end of the day, its HIM ...

mungkin sudah waktunya

buat apa menunggu lagi?

toh tidak ada lagi yang bisa di lakukan

mereka pun sepertinya sudah rela dan pasrah pada apa yang akan terjadi nanti

jadi untuk apa menunggu lebih lama?

cepat selesaikan..

semakin cepat, akan semakin baik

itu menurutku.

semakin cepat waktunya, semakin sedikit sakit yang akan dia rasakan

tapi mungkin mereka, keluarganya, tidak sependapat

tentu saja. aku pun mungkin demikian kalau aku salah satu keluarganya.

saya: harusnya di kemo di singapur, tapi kondisinya ga memungkinkan
L: gw malah gatau nyokapnya sakit.

papa: kok kamu ngga pergi sama w?
saya: ngga, dia lg di ruma sakit.
papa: ha? kenapa?
saya: mamanya sakit, di opname.
papa: sigh..

sampai kapan harus merasakan sakit?

..

W: Ne, nyokap gw uda di panggil Tuhan.
saya: ...

DIA tau kapan saat yang tepat.
yang kita lakukan disini, hanya menunggu dan berusaha.

14.12.06;

Friday, December 08, 2006

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15 jam

3 cangkir kopi

2 lembar roti tawar

masalah-masalah

emosi-emosi

kegilaan

kekesalan

ditambah projects yang tak kunjung selesai

cape

laper

bosen

jenuh

pegel

semoga semuanya terbayar

dengan harga yang pantas

8.12.06;

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

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like i was playing truth or dare.

and i picked dare.

because, ...

i thought i was strong enough.
i thought i was over him.
i thought i cud handle my feeling.
i thought..

everything was fine..

until someone reveals the truth.

no, i'm not strong enough, to know he's in love with another girl.

no, i'm not over him at all.

no, i can't handle anything. especially my feeling to him.

no, i'm not. i am not.

what should i do?

where is my painkiller?

bring me my painkiller. NOW.

..but it doesn't work anymore

can i run? please?

i wanna run. run. run. run. run run run.

to a place where he doesn't exist anymore.

is that place even exist?

tell me. TELL ME.

take me there. i wanna go there.

...

is there any place belong to me?

place where i can find my happiness

hey you.

yes, you. come.

can you help me find my happiness?

can you bring my happiness back?

can you?

please tell me you can.

please?..

5.12.06;

Friday, December 01, 2006

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one of my flatmates is leaving this morning. shes back for good to german coz she almost done with her thesis, and she found a job there.

it feels so sad seeing other person, esp. ur friends leaving u. i feel so sad coz evryone is leaving me n now im alone in my flat. huhu. so lijing was off to work, and ya i'll see her tonight i guess, then svenja and alvaro r heading to the airport now.

my flat has been sooo busy these last 2 wks, bcoz so many people came n hv dinner, or just sit hv a chit chat, watchin tv, dance, laugh n whatever. and alvaro, he's been staying here for the past week. one funny thing, this morning, we found out that alvaro's fave jeans got ripped on the ass. lol. and he has to wear it everywhere, showing his cute-ass-wif-black-red-stripes-undies off. so funny. but he doesnt care at all with showing his butt off, he just so sad coz dat jeans is his fave one.

and now, since evryone is leaving, and i got nothin to do. well, i supposed to hv class this morning, but im too lazy n too sad to go. huhu.

o well, my turn wud be on dec 9th. so, just wait.. 8 more days to go. and lijing wud be so alone staying here. poor baby.

k then, i wanna enjoy my breakfast now. see ya!

1.12.06;