LAND of a THOUSAND WORDS

Friday, September 29, 2006

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For every last bruise you gave me

For every time I sat in tears

For the million ways you hurt me

I just wanna tell you this,

You broke my world, made me STRONG

Thank you~!

Messed up my dreams, made me STRONG

Thank you~!

thankyou thankyou

THANK YOU~!!!

:)

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

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check this out! xD~

The Bitter Stickgirl

the drawing is so cute n funny..

i likeyy!!! <3

:D~ :D~ :D~

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

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sometimes I just wonder what's wif my life..

one day I could feel very very HAPPY that it feels like I'm floating in the air and I cant just stop smiling.

but the next day I could feel WORST that it feels like I'm falling so fast and hit the ground so hard, and yeah, it hurts like hell.

and it happens always like that. and I wonder why?

I mean, can I just live a normal-happy life?

It feels like, there's no way I can feel any happines for more than 2 or 3 days.

sometimes I just think, if there's no bad times, then there's no point of feeling good. coz, we cud never realize it.

when you can feel your sadness, then you will be able to feel your happiness. or the other way around.

but still ...

I just wanna be HAPPYYY HAPPYY HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~

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Monday, September 25, 2006

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HUGE WEEKENDDDDD~~ hoho..

my weekend was cool.. on friday, i went to 'MERAH-PUTIH' wif my fwends, watched some performs, then went to REDROCK to grab some food, cuz we got all hungryy.. we ate till 2am, then we all went back home.. real fun but damn tired!!
on sat, my fwends n i went to the market, n spent LOTSA money on clothes, shoes, n stuff.. we really" spent too much!! I, myself got 4 pairs of shoes, 1 jeans, 2 sweats, and 1 shirt.. hOooo~ after finished shopping, we all went to eat SATE!! well, it's diff from indo's sate, it's even better i think.. hehe xD~
ok last day, I went to church on sunday, wif iwa.. we went to my church cuz we wanna go buy cake after the mass.. SO, after the mass, we supposed to go directly to wfj, buy the cake, n going back home.. BUT what happened was, we didnt go directly to wfj, we stop at xidan, n we did anotha shoppinggg theree!! I got 1 Esprit jacket, n 1 EDC, the EDC one is so cute, it's half jacket n half blazer.. xD~~ but now I'm broke! totally! thats wad I called guilty-pleasure!! HAHAHA~

o well, been curhat-ing a lot wif feli lately.. huhu.. n I really" missed talking on-the-phone wif her.. gossiping, screaming n laughing till my wireless' batt empty! HA HA HA HA.. I MISS YOU TWINS!! hihi.. wish u were here~~!

today is TWEPHY's bday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear!! iwa, vidi, n me did a lil surprise to her this morning.. we brought her a cake, n some presents.. hehe.. I made her fried-noodles, then we took some pics, cut the cake, n ate the cake. I bought Bread-Talk Blackforest n its so YUMMYYY~ after the lil n short 'party', we ordered some food for lunch n watched dvd while eating. :D :D :D :D :D

hmph.. I realized sumthin GOOD ystday.. I dont think I can write it here, Ive told feli n kojep oredi, but yeah, not sure if i cud write nethin here.. HAHAHA.. so sorry, but, FYI, I was so HAPPYYY~ even tho nothing's actually happen.. (n i didnt xpect nethin to b happened) but still, I was so excited.. n ~~I'm HAPPY HAPPYY HAPPYYY~!!! hahaha..~~

last, hv neone seen STEP UP? thats one of a great moviee~ u shud see!! ive seen couple of times, n i cant get enuff! :D~

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

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thanks for .. uhm, all the good and bad times u've given me..

all the smile and laugh..

and for the happiness

:)

u made me laugh and cry at the same time

so,

thanks cuz u've given me the worst n also best feeling i've ever felt..

i miss you. it hurts.

21.9.06;

Monday, September 18, 2006

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YAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~!

just got new apt and new flatmates! Svenja n Lili.. hoho.. cant wait to move out from thiz big apt.. haha.. well, its good to hv flatmates again! im not gonna b alone nemoree.. :D~ :D~ :D~
i'll move to 8th floor nxt mth! YAYYY~ so xciteddddddd~!!! babay 11th floor.. i'll be leaving u soonnn~ HAHAHAH..

oh yeah, im so xcited n almost forget my project.. damn.. its due 2mrw, n i hvnt do nething yet!!! i dont really knoe wad to do neway.. i hv no idea with this project.. huhu.. wad shud i dooooooo~ ergh!! i hv to THINK, THINK, n THINK ~!

ok, time to think now.. ciao!

18.9.06;

Friday, September 15, 2006

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is it too much to ask if i ask u to stay?

please stay. stay with me.

im getting to like this feelin ive found.

im getting to love the thought of having u around.

n i will never let u down.

12.40am n i still cant sleep yet.

i supposed to sleep by now, cuz im sleepy.

but i cant..

sigh..

okay then, bye for now.

15.9.06;

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IM TIRED.

evritym i say those words, they said i need sum rest n more sleep.

but no.

i dont need those.

its not my body that feels tired. its my SOUL.

yes, my soul is tired.

my heart is tired. my mind is tired. my feeling is tired.

im tired of thinking too much, waiting too long, loving too deep. maybe.

dont ask anything cuz i may not be able to find u any answer.

i lost my mind. my brain half-dead.

i feel sick. i feel nuts.

i feel lost. i feel numb.

can anyone pull me out of this unknown world?

or this is my reality now?

im lost in my own reality of life.

how sucks?

i dont even recognize my own world nemore..

feel like living someone else's life..

are these real? or is it just a dream?

im tryin to keep my feet on the ground..

just to make sure im still alive..

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Thursday, September 14, 2006

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hmmmp..

i went to Valentino's exhibiton at the Art Museum this morning.. well, the xhibition is quite big.. there r also furniture, jewelery, painting, n sculpture xhibition.. the furniture n jewelery r more interesting than the Valentino's. there r 15-20 valentino's red dresses, n from all i like 3 of em.. but yeah, its not really interesting.. i like the furniture area better.. there r so many cute things there..

went back to sch with emile n lidya after we done wif the xhibition.. we chat alot in our way back to sch.. n yea, its fun tho.. hehe.. then, i went to the holy land wif lidya to buy cake n fruit-ice.. then we went back to sch..

i ate my cake in the library, n read some books, then ericka came, n we chat.. after that, we went out for lunch wif sylvia n ivan.. at the resto near sch.. then i go back to sch for Anna's class..

nothin special i guess.. but, not bad either..

i have a bad mood today, dunno why.. yeah well, maybe i knoe why.. but, i think i shudnt write it here.. hehe.. maybe its just my mood.. ive been not in a good mood these last 2 weeks.. huhuhu..

yah well, k then, im tired.. go to bed now.. get sum rest n hope evrythin ll be fine 2mrw.. :) :)

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

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heyasssssssss babyyyy~~

wOohhHHooooo~ I feel so happyy todayy~

I handed-in my 1st project to Anna this afternoon, n I CANT BELIEVE SHE LIKED IT!!! yaaayyyyy~!! I thought she wudnt interest at all.. but.. wOoo~ she liked it! hahahahah.. n yea, im happy of corz.
at first, i was planning on making a post-card, but then i got blank n hv no idea bout how to design the post-card.. Ive made it once, but Anna thought it's not good enuff, so I hv to make a lil change for the design.. but I didnt knoe wad to do wif that.. then, after all the troubles, i decided to change it into a poster.. n ura helps me with the design! THANK YOU URA beybee!!! hahahah~
now, its time for 2nd projecttt~ n yeshh, i DO know what to doo.. haha.. YEAAAAAAA~ im soooo xciteddd!!! :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~

ok, forget bout the project.. hOhoho..

hmm, i dunno wads wrong wif my head, but it feels sooo heavyy.. feels like going to xplode netyme soon.. huhu.. just hope it will disappear asap.. cuz i cant stand it.. hhhhh... feels lyk hell inside my head.. >.<

AND HEYY.. u knoe waddddd,,

he shows-up 2dayy.. and I CANT STOP SMILING for lyk all dayy~ hahahahahahah.. I feel like ABG agaiiinnnnn.. hahahah.. doHHh, i feel so stoopid, n feel like im an idiot or whatsoeverr... but who caress eyyy?? hihih.. :)~

i think this post is a lil bit messed up,, sorry for that, but yeah, i dont care cuz i cant really think bout nething.. i just wanna write n let ya knoe that im so happy todayyy.. :D~ :D~

k then, thankyou, au revoir~!

12.9.06;

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love is ended before it's begun..

yea rite. 11o% correct. lol.

well, dunno wad to write actually.. but i feel lyk writing anythin, so here i am..

its 11.32am, im waiting for anna's class at 1.. i woke up at 8.3o thiz morning cuz i supposed to go to Valentino exhibiton at the art museum, but im not going.. i'll b going on thursday instead.

wanna go back to sleep, but i cant.. huhu.. so boring.. well, thank God felice is online.. im chatting wif her now.. talkin bout stuff.. u know.. boys, boys, n boys again.. hahah..
uhm, its funny actually how i met felice.. i remember met her 1st time on irc! when i was still in primary sch!! hohoho.. then we really meet face2face, person2person, few days bfore she moved to melb.. then we meet again when i was in melb.. but she moved back to indo now.. hehe..

duh, im sleepy noww.. damn.. cant sleep leh, hv to go to sch in 30 mins.. too bad i cant skip the class, cuz i hav to hand-in my 1st project n talk to my lecturer bout my 2nd project.. huhu..

newayy,, i feel like going to the beach, all day till nite.. hav a quality tym wif myself.. hahaha.. i dunno, i just feel like it.. i always love beach.. the sun, the sea, the sand, the feeling.. always feels good.. :D~ :D~

well o well, hv to go in 15 mins, so i betta end it up.. i'll see ya later, tonite maybe.. hOho..

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Monday, September 11, 2006

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wow, its September 11th 2oo6! 5 years after the attacks that felled the towers in NYC.. cant beliv its been 5 years oredi.. such a long tym.. hohoh..

well, wanna share u my thoughts.. :)~

sumtimes i just feel so tired living my own life. I mean, my life definitely not that bad, but yeah, its not that good either. there wr times when i really enjoying my life, but there wr times when i feel that life's a total bitch, n being unfair to me. cant i just live a normal-happy life?

yesh, i hv lotsa fwend, but hey.. r they really my friends? sumtimes i just think that some of them r not my friends. well, yesh they r my friends, but not REALLY my friends. they who shows-up only when they hv probs, r definitely not considered as my friend.. im tired having those kinda friend.. n the good news is, i have many of them! fck.

why always me who has to understand them? ive had enuff wif understanding other ppls business. can they, just once, try to understand me??? or at least, listen to me? well, they dont hav to say anythin, just listen. thats it. is it that bad ask them to listen to me? is it too much to ask?

i feel like dont wanna care about them nemore, but i just cant. i wish i cud avoid them when they come to me wif their probs, but hell, i always cant. wtf is wrong wif me?? ive had enuff wif other ppls life. dammit, do u realize, i hv my life too.. n i wish i hv someone like me in my life. someone who can be there for me 24/7 listening to my fuckin probs.

too bad, i dont have someone lyk that in my fuckin life.. and to b honest, i dont want that kinda friend, i dont want a friend whom i come only when i hv probs. i want a friend whom i can share not only my probs, but also my happiness.. and THANK GOD, i have that kinda friends already. friends who can laugh n cry wif me. thank god for sending them for me.

and for u, who consider me as one of ur bestfriends, but only come to me when u hv probs.. please, dont bother to come to me again next time. try to find sumone else who consider u as their bestfriend. they surely will listen to u, n help u out of ur probs. :D :D

.so in love with my friends.

11.9.06;

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i hate period!! i feel so fckin damned coz of my period.

last nite i cant sleep till 7 am! my stomach hurts so bad, n my back-hips annoys me alot. and i can do nothin bout it. sighh.. but, THANK God the hurt part is over.. :)

these last few days ive been watchin japanese drama series.. its called Taiyou no Uta, it means song to the sun in english.. Ive downloaded the movie and the series version, it's a lil bit different.. the series is more modern than the movie. the girl who plays on the series, is the same girl who plays 1 litre of tears. this movie is about a rare disease, just like 1 litre of tears. but this disease is called XP, so, the person who gets this kinda disease cant be exposed to the sun, or else they might die. so, they can only go out at night. its a good movie tho..

oh well, i havent finished my drawing homework.. still 5 to go.. but im not really in the mood of doing some drawing.. i did 5 already, n its bad like hell.. n i dont feel like continuing..

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Saturday, September 09, 2006

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to b honest..

I will not be able to hate u,

and I hate myself coz of that.

I hate the way I dont hate u,

not even close, not even a lil bit, not even at all..

and to make it worse,

the deeper I fall for u, the weaker I get~

f. you

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

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today is so cold n windyyyyy.. the wind blows everything off.. papers, books, even my big pencil case.. damn, wad's with the weather..

well, i've been watching series of one tree hill the 3rd season, these last 3 days. and i just finished the last part few minutes ago.. and i have nothing to do now.. so, here i am.. telling story of my daily life on my blog..

i skip anna's class this afternoon. i just felt so tired, and bored.. i sorta not in the mood to do anything.. i slept only 4hrs last nite, i skip the class, went home n was hoping to get some sleep.. but the hell, i wasnt sleepy at all.. so i ended up sitting in front of my laptop watching one tree hill.

2mrw is friday oredii.. another weekend comin up.. how fast! the forecast says that 2mrw might be raining.. hohoho.. i'll just stay at home, enjoying every drop of the water falling down from above.. watching movies with a cup of hot mocca~ yeaa.. soooo niceee.. hahah.. :D~ :D~ :D~

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

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you know wad..,

sometimes for me, its good to know whom u're going after.. even that means u're going after another girl.. but, i feel way much better that way, than like this.. know nothing bout you..
i feel lost.. tryin to find the answer, but i cant .. i cant find it anywhere..

ohh Goddddddd... cant u just take this feelin awayy???? >.<

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Monday, September 04, 2006

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finalle home..

i stayed at twephy's for weekend.. we went to the carnival on sat, but its too late. so, we decided to go to another place. we went to wfj, n i bought some stuff there. i skip church on sunday, bcoz i didnt wake up.. huhu..

i got drawing class today. so bored, but it finished earlier. how good! :D :D
n another good news here, my teacher told me, that i can finish my degree at the end of next year!! yeeehhaaaa~!! that so freakin amazing! 1 more year n i can finish my freakin sch!! :D :D :D :D :D
but that means, i cant do my intern in indo.. i hv to do it here.. n i dunno if i can back to indo on dec.. but well, no worries.. i'll do anythin so i can finish my sch earlierr.. hohoho~

well, degree.. here i comee~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~ :D~

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